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I’ve woken up to a realisation - 

All the negative comments that were thrown at me last night, everything I was insecure about, they actually don’t matter. Now they’ve been said to me via your mouth, I literally don’t care anymore.

At the end of the day, there insecurities. I have far more reasons to be happy, confident, smiley. Even more so now that I will point blank refuse to ever speak to you again :) 

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Day 1. Introduce yourself.

Well, my name is Sophia, I am 22 years old and I am a tea addict. I currently live with my dad in the one place i’ve ever called home. Unfortunately this happens to be in a very quiet little village called East Leake, which only has Loughborough, the local town, as a quick escape. When I was 19 I went back to College to do the A Levels I should of stuck at at 16, and on Thursday 19th August I find out what the results of two years hard work are. But I am not nervous about these results, as the result I need to worry about is on August 24th, GCSE Maths. This is the important result because it is this which determines whether I start Uni on September 1st to study Psychology. If I get this grade then on September 1st I move to Edinburgh, a good 300+ miles away from home. If I don’t, I guess I will look into clearing but more than likely will take a year out to work and earn some dollar. I have a fair few tattoos (25) and piercings (6) and one lobe stretched to 20mm. I am addicted to tea, stand true to my Cypriot blood by having a ridiculous temper and apparently I look like a man as the side of my head is shaved. Sick. Manliness for the win!

I come across as confident, cocky and a lot of people presumme I like to cause trouble. But in reality I am extremely self concious with a million and one body issues who constantly doubts her friendships with an exceptional talent for paranoid tendencies. I over compensate for my insecruities by being loud and in your face and I don’t go out to cause problems, instead people percieve I am because if someone asks me what I think I will be honest with them. Often not pleasantly recieved by others. I have borderline personality disorder, agoraphobia and severe depression.

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Today’s theme, purple

I would like a bedroom like this it looks beautiful!!

My exam went well btw :) Suprisingly confident about it!!!

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Over the past 6 or so weeks, there are a few people who have really, really been there for me. Some who were already close friends, some who have suprised me and shown me shit ain’t so bad. I’ve made some new friends, strengthened friendships and met some people I never want to lose.

I hope they all know how much I appreciate them being there for me. I don’t know what I would of done without them. I am so weak, and they are making me stronger day by day.